Surprise

turns out I'm knocked up :)

this is a happy thing! Albiet the weight loss will be put on hold but a focus on healthy eating and activity will be the main focus so I don't gain 60lbs again!

:)

I am so over the moon!

Woohoo!

So I weighed myself today. If you remember correctly I started this journey at 192.4 lbs. I weighted myself today and I weight 189.2! Thats a loss of three lbs! I know its pretty fast, but I think its only because of how I've made the inital change to my caloric intake.

I know I have a long ways to go but I want to talk about how far I've come already. After Yale was discharged from the hospital the last time after his heart transplant, I came home and stepped on the scale. I was 208.9 lbs. At the time of course it bothered me, but definitely not as much then as it would now if I was still that weight. I never ever thought I would hit the 200 mark...(except maybe during a pregnancy) And there I was with a nice 10lb jump on the 200s. I don't even remember saying wow I should do something about this. I didn't even care. Wait, thats not right. of course I cared. I just didn't care enough to do anything about it. I didn't care enough to eat and live healthy, to teach my son how to be and live healthy. That was pretty rude of me to do I think. So flash forward to today and Yale is well out of poor health for a year and ahalf and NOW I've decided to try and keep him that way! And to do that, for the long term, is to teach him about eating healthy, being active, and taking care of your soul. I hope I can come back to this post if I ever get discouraged for some reason or another. Its not just about weight loss anymore. Its about getting and keeping my family heart healthy!

Here we go!

So I actually got up this morning and worked out. Today was just the pps challenge again...but it has been done! And might I add BEFORE 9 am! That must be some sort of record. Anyhoo I don't think this would be that big of a post since i'm still going steady since starting this yesterday ;)

But After my insane workout yesterday I thought it would be a good time for a before picture. So i'm biting the bullet and making this public!!!!

Sexy huh?

worked out :)

So I realized as I was texting Tyler (the boyfriend) that I had done my pushups/situps/squats (pss) challenge yesterday (my thighs are burning from the squats) and that I has planned to do bodyrock workouts on the days inbetween. So I did my first one today and well... I am sweaty to say the least!

i did 3 circuits of 6 different exercises. I was ready to quit after the first exercise.... and I cam really close to stopping after the first and second round. but i toughed through even if I quit 2 seconds before the interval was over. i found a nifty timing website to count my intervals for me. 30 seconds each exercise to 30 seconds rest. this is the website i used. And this is Zuzana's workout. Bitch is crazy is all I can say!

Started counting calories on an application I downloaded onto my phone. Tomorrow I'll be doing week1day3 on c25k on my way home from work :)

Suicidal sweat Workout

I came across this girl yesterday in my internet travels who makes free workout videos. This girl is nutso! But I think I'm going to attempt her suicidal sweat workout! She is KRAZY! here is the video. Yes she looks fantastic with her boobs and everything out... So I don't think Ty will mind watching this while I do the work out :) I'll let you all in on how day one went down. The plan is to do it this afternoon when my son Yale is down for a nap! Wish me luck!

A little introduction rambling :)

Okay so this is kind of wierd right now to write like I am talking to "someone" even though I don't plan on sharing it much. I assume at some point I will so I'll just refer to anyone who is reading as you :). I like to brag about things and I think its sometime off putting. Half the time I don't realize how I come off while I'm talking until its too late. I think 'ah geez, I'm such a shmuck' but by then its too late. So please don't take it as sleezy full on bragging? I won't have the ability to edit out my 'shmucky-ness' without losing lots of trains of thought, so I'll just be me. As brash as that is!

So I JUST read for the first time today a blog a girlfriend of mine has set up on her weight loss. She unlike me has been sucessful at getting the weight off and keeping it off. I am in awe of her will power, and sheer strength to just not take the easy way out and eat what she wants and just sit on the couch and watch t.v.

I'm sort of creating this blog act as source of accountability. To be completely honest with myself and anyone that may stumble upon this blog! I want to be skinny. I KNOW I am a skinny girl trapped in a fat girl's body. I have the confidence of someone who is at the least 50 lbs lighter than I am now if not more! I don't know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. I weight 192.4 lbs today. I'm actually not that upset with that number because in January I weighted 203.2 lbs. So I've lost some weight.... but currently I gained back about 6 lbs of what I had recently lost. ANNOYING! That is because I have no juck food will power. I can eat crap for weeks at a time. i binge and binge and binge... and then something like Kelly's blog comes along and reminds me that HELLO! I am supposed to be on a weightloss journey. QUIT EATING CRAP!

So here I am. first day off of a binge...(so far if I keep my eating in check!) And I am starting the blog. Its going to be used in many ways...but mostly just a theraputic means for me to work through this struggle.

Thanks for reading!