55 days on MFP!

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NSV baby!

So I had a great day today :) its late so this is going to be another short post...but man. I went and got some new sports bra's today for running... down TWO band sizes and the cup size is smaller and I spill out a little bit...but I didn't mind because I know my cup size will go down when I stop nursing Kane... I was so excited, and right now and wearing a sports bra over any of my nice ones :) Then I picked up two shirts for running, and without even trying them on just bought them....in a size.... medium :) GO ME! Oh ya... AND I was in desperate need of some actual short shorts. the shortest shorts I owned where like capris... YA. Not conducive to tanning my legs.... and so I went to American Eagle.... this time last year I cried in american eagle because I hadn't been able to wear their jeans in sooo long and actually fit into a size 14. Then I got pregnant and those jeans were put away until last month! Woohoo.... and so I grab a bunch of 14s... and yup, you guessed it... they were ALL too big.... I could comfortable go down to a size 12 and snuggly fit into a size 10. SIZE 10 AT AMERICAN EAGLE....DUDE... I swear when I break into the single digits in pants at american eagle, I am going to wear a shirt that says my pant size. LOL Talk about remotivation after falling off the weekend! WOOT WOOT!
Oh ya... 175.2lbs today... not back to what I was before the Niagara Falls incident... but getting there! and whatever... I just bought size 12 shorts from American Eagle today. I fucking rock... (and yes I swear and actually said that when I was trying them on in the change room!

Fell off the wagon

I had a great weekend family wise, not so much eating wise.... I never thought it would be so easy to fall back into my old ways so quickly. Tyler and I had an impromptu trip to Niagara Falls. I had only been when I was a young child so had no memory of it so it was fun and exciting for us all! Yale loved it, and it was a great day... except my willpower. I left in here in London :) on the way out for the trip home we stopped and grabbed some fudge. I got a slab of fudge and a caramel apple. Suffice it to say all was gone within the next 12 hours :( BAD. Then we went on a scenic drive down highway 3  along lake erie. That was such a last second decision I forgot to pack some snacks...and thus ended up gorging on chocolate and crap. I also had gotten frustrated with week 5 of the c25k because I just could not run the second 8 minute interval without walking... However yesterday when I stepped on the scale I saw that I had gained weight, and I was just not proud of myself for dropping the ball on eating well and exercising.... so I pushed myself to go out and run that second 8 minute interval. I kept trying to talk myself out of it, but I pushed myself out the door and gave myself shit for quitting so easily on my eating and exercising and as a punishment I HAD to push through the run... which I did. I am soooo glad I did. I am back on the horse. This is where I usually would just give in to defeat and revert to my old ways of binging on terrible foods, and never exercising. I am so proud of myself for going back to MFP and logging food again, and for continuing on with c25k... I can really see a new me on the horizon... even if I did gain back 4 pounds in one weekend.... I fell off the wagon, but unlike the old me, I picked myself up and jumped back on! WOOHOO!

I hate my scale!

It keeps me on my toes that for sure! digital scales drive me nuts. mine jumps up and down by a pound and a bit and it drives me nuts! So I got on the scale this am because its official weigh in day today and I see 174.4 then get off and it says error. So I jump back on and its down to173 even. Then I go on again an hour later and its back to 174.4 but doesn't say error...GRRR.... So I am going to stick with the 173 because its pretty :) LOL
I was visiting a friend of mine yesterday....haven't seen her since I was in labour with Kane. and as I am standing in the door she says to me. "I haven't seen you this thin before" YAY! she noticed... I mean clearly I am thinner than when I was full term with an 8 lb baby.. but she has seen me on a weekly basis all through the last 4 years... and the fact is. I have never been this thin before since we met. I think i was around 180 lbs when I started at my job... where we met... I just smile and said thanks, I haven't been this thin before! LOL

Anyhoo... I have a feeling I'm going to be entering a time of slower weightloss as I focus more on my running. I'm going to go this weekend and register for my first ever 5k this July... and night run...and I bet its going to be way too hot... but I just want to go out and get a race under my belt. A girl on a blog I read said "you will never regret any race ever" so I am going to hold her to it :)

Damn you week 5!

So today was my redo of week five day 2.... the dreaded 8 minute run intervals.... Last time I did it I wasn't prepared for 8 minutes... I figured it would be 5 minute run intervals again... imagine my confusion when I am running and running and running... wtf? Anyhoo so I decided to repeat because day 2 is the big scary 20 minute run...OMFG! I know and so I must make sure I can run that damn second interval before I think I can move on! I run the first 8 min, no prob! its the damn second one... around 3 minute in I am praying for my bell to signal I am finished, and thus I stop to check my time.... and always have 5 minutes left...GRRR... but w5d2 you will not get me down! I will conquer you! Oh yes I will... and so the above picture is my game face... even after being defeated the second time... third times the charm!

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...that is all.

Non Scale Victory

A non scale victory or NSV is something that is victorious in your weight loss journey, but has nothing to do with the actual scale or your weight directly. I had one of those today.... I sold my stupid Nintendo Wii today with the help of kijiji. Sold the wii fit and balance board first to a lady. Wanted to hint at her, that it won't help her lose weight since losing weight in my opinion is 80% diet and 20% exercise... but whatever. Thanks for your money, good luck with that. Then I sold the rest of the Wii to a man who was buying it for his kids for a communion present. There you go, I can imagine they will play it WAY more than I ever did! Enjoy.
So Tyler and I pack the kids up and head out to sportschek... yup that right there should be a sign that the times, they are a changing...LOL. My first intent was to just go and buy weights. I know I need to add weight training to my workout routine, but once I got there and saw all the awesome clothes, that went out the window. I first found a nice Under Armour tank that has been marked down from 59.99 to 19.83. Yes. score :) Then I am looking at the technical running clothes. I know its going to get hot here soon and I need to invest in some shorts. Nike, Under Armour, everything is like $70 and then I come across Diadora running capris. So I grab myself a large and head to the dressing rooms to try them on.... Now an issue I have been having with running and my current pant situation is that my little apron of skin (no longer full of fat) keeps pushing them down because well.... they are just too big, and I spend the marjority of my runs, pulling my pants up.. its a great look I am sure (I don't mind though, because its proof I am shedding the poundage). So I try on the large... and they fit nicely, but I can pull the waist our a good four inches around my stomach. WTF? I think... am I really doing this, but I ask the sales girl to grab me a medium... ME! trying on a medium. Anyhoo...so I get the mediums, try them on and bam... perfect fit. Holy shit I think to myself as I am looking in the mirror.... I can NOT believe that these fit me... So now I feel great. If I could have I would have high fived the sales lady as I was handing her the too big large and walking away with my mediums. I was so happy I grab the same style only in a short short :) I am just that brave to run in shorts :) I am in a size medium after all, and not in the obese category for BMI. I have a right to rock these shorts.

The pessimist in me that I like to shush up and tell her to fuck off keeps popping into my head and telling me that diadora is probably just sized larger. I say fuck her, I'm rocking medium pants! YEAH BABY!

its weight in day

That time of the week :) Yay Thursdays! LOL

Todays weight was 175.8 lbs. YAY :)

and for a little self motivation

I know I should have taken the tank of, because Ty says most off the slimming has happened around my rib cage and waist.... next time..I swear... I can still tell a difference!

just some thoughts

I think I am really starting to notice the weight loss.... I have a pair of pyjama pants that really made it hit home. These are just normal pj pants, but they were always very tight through the hips, and I couldn't even wear them after i was three months along with Kane. Well I put them on the other night, and they fell right down. all. the. way. down. Uhm.... ya... that was a great feeling.... I think I had a stupid grin on my face for the rest of the night! I mean I know I am losing, because the scales tell me so Kane is 3 months and 2 days old today, and I remember when I was home with my mom, proudly exclaiming that i was down to 211, and then 207.... and then i was 195ish the end of march....and today I was 175.8 when i stepped on the scale. Thats 20 lbs people. like. really.... I have lost 20 lbs! And 59 lbs since the highest weight during my pregnancy with Kane.... hell I'll round that up to. 60 lbs lost since feb 9th 2011
There. That feels good to shout. Thats two yales. They've just disappeared. shit.... i need a pat on the back!

I think it has happened....

I have been bitten by the running bug. I get it. When I was younger I remember looking at runners and saying to my sister... "what would ever posess someone to run for no reason?" I didn't get it back then  Now, that said sister took up running, and started to enjoy it. I thought, okay is she likes it, maybe there is something to this. Now my main motivation to try out running was to make my heart strong. Second to lose weight.... third... to be a "runner" Now I just want to be a runner... well I am a runner. I don't need much self motivation to get out there and do it. maybe a little inner pep talk to push through when I get a stitch in my side or when my soundtrack shuffles and I can hear my haggard breathing and feel like a fat girl running... but still I am out there doing it. I AM RUNNING. and don't tell the old me this, but I actually really like it! I like pushing myself mentally and physically. I like seeing myself getting stronger, breathing more easily, and finishing something that just a few weeks ago I thought I never could do.


Oh P.S. 177.4 lbs this am :)

Yesterday

was official weigh in day, but I didn't post because I knew I'd be reaching a new goal today. So here I am with my weight in from this morning of 178.4 lbs :) Goal reached 3 weeks early! WOOHOO!

183.8 April 27th--DONE!

178.8 May 27th --Met May 6th
173.8 June 27th
168.8 July 27th
163.8 Aug 27th
158.8 Sept 27th
153.8 Oct 27th
148.8 Nov 27th

buh bye!

I am saying buh-bye to the 180's forever! jumped on the scale this am and saw a 179.8 Ya, just barely under... but officially out of the 180's! I am proving to myself and everyone out there, I can do this! I CAN lose this weight!

Oh, and I went for my run on Saturday and my lululemon pants that used to be very snug...kept falling down :) can't wait to drop below that 175 mark and earn myself some new running gear :)