20 down, 20 to go!

Today

I just can't stop staring at this! That is 18 lbs difference in the pictures. I can just imagine the next!

65 days and a new decade!

I soooo remember being excited about 183lbs! LOL I just beat the 170's and weighted in at 169.8 this am. I am sure you can imagine how I feel :) smiley faces just can't even explain LOL!

Yup, that about sums it up!

60 days of trying

60 days! the thing that I love about MFP is that it works! I can't believe that I found something that actually works. I am about 1 lb away from entering into another decade in my weight loss! I was in the 190s then the 180s and am currently in the 170's and am sooo close to see a 169 and I just cannot wait! of course I have to because its all up to me on when I see it happen...bu being this close has completely rededicated me. I haven't been this small since I was in my early 20's.... and the best part is that honestly, its been pretty easy. I really do believe that weight loss is 80% diet, 20% exercise. As long as you are expelling more calories than you are taking in, you will lose weight.

I've been a little annoyed because I got my period back yesterday.... I was hoping for a long time before I had to deal with TOM again, but I guess its the price I pay to have Kane sleeping for the majority of night. Thanks to TOM I have been fighting hard with my urge to eat any and all crap! yesterday I practically forced Ty to go out and get his supper so I could get a milkshake. The difference was that when I had it, of course I thought MMMM YUM, but I was also thinking.. this is totally unnecessary. I don't need these calories. The difference is that when go home I put on my shoes and went for a run. And I am glad I did because I woke up this morning to a nice drop in weight :) YAY! I weighted in at 170.8 sooo close to another decade.... and I am pretty surprised to see it dropping even with how bloated I am feeling....

55 days on MFP!

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/topics/show/251737-55-days

NSV baby!

So I had a great day today :) its late so this is going to be another short post...but man. I went and got some new sports bra's today for running... down TWO band sizes and the cup size is smaller and I spill out a little bit...but I didn't mind because I know my cup size will go down when I stop nursing Kane... I was so excited, and right now and wearing a sports bra over any of my nice ones :) Then I picked up two shirts for running, and without even trying them on just bought them....in a size.... medium :) GO ME! Oh ya... AND I was in desperate need of some actual short shorts. the shortest shorts I owned where like capris... YA. Not conducive to tanning my legs.... and so I went to American Eagle.... this time last year I cried in american eagle because I hadn't been able to wear their jeans in sooo long and actually fit into a size 14. Then I got pregnant and those jeans were put away until last month! Woohoo.... and so I grab a bunch of 14s... and yup, you guessed it... they were ALL too big.... I could comfortable go down to a size 12 and snuggly fit into a size 10. SIZE 10 AT AMERICAN EAGLE....DUDE... I swear when I break into the single digits in pants at american eagle, I am going to wear a shirt that says my pant size. LOL Talk about remotivation after falling off the weekend! WOOT WOOT!
Oh ya... 175.2lbs today... not back to what I was before the Niagara Falls incident... but getting there! and whatever... I just bought size 12 shorts from American Eagle today. I fucking rock... (and yes I swear and actually said that when I was trying them on in the change room!

Fell off the wagon

I had a great weekend family wise, not so much eating wise.... I never thought it would be so easy to fall back into my old ways so quickly. Tyler and I had an impromptu trip to Niagara Falls. I had only been when I was a young child so had no memory of it so it was fun and exciting for us all! Yale loved it, and it was a great day... except my willpower. I left in here in London :) on the way out for the trip home we stopped and grabbed some fudge. I got a slab of fudge and a caramel apple. Suffice it to say all was gone within the next 12 hours :( BAD. Then we went on a scenic drive down highway 3  along lake erie. That was such a last second decision I forgot to pack some snacks...and thus ended up gorging on chocolate and crap. I also had gotten frustrated with week 5 of the c25k because I just could not run the second 8 minute interval without walking... However yesterday when I stepped on the scale I saw that I had gained weight, and I was just not proud of myself for dropping the ball on eating well and exercising.... so I pushed myself to go out and run that second 8 minute interval. I kept trying to talk myself out of it, but I pushed myself out the door and gave myself shit for quitting so easily on my eating and exercising and as a punishment I HAD to push through the run... which I did. I am soooo glad I did. I am back on the horse. This is where I usually would just give in to defeat and revert to my old ways of binging on terrible foods, and never exercising. I am so proud of myself for going back to MFP and logging food again, and for continuing on with c25k... I can really see a new me on the horizon... even if I did gain back 4 pounds in one weekend.... I fell off the wagon, but unlike the old me, I picked myself up and jumped back on! WOOHOO!