time is relative

20 minutes? 20 minutes used to be nothing to me. "oh I'll be there in 20 minutes" or "I'll be back in 20" Today... as i was shredding with Jillian AFTER my c25k I was on the second circuit and thinking... its only 20 minutes, why do I feel like i am going to die. Truth is. in that moment... i wasn't dying. I am dying now. now that my muscles have stopped panicing and are now bitching at me about what i am doing to them. Seriously, I have to psych myself up to go and get a glass of water for Yale when he asks... getting off the couch is Just.That.Hard. ugh....

but, and this is a huge HUGE but here! I did it! i worked out "two a days" as those athletes would say. two workouts in one day....albiet mine are only 20-25 minute work outs, I still did it... and I took the damn stairs again after my run.... thats right folks... I live on the 9th floor... yes NINTH floor... normally after a run I take the stairs because...it just seems right... and i usually start to pass out around the 3 or 4th...and i think i am going to die around the 7th... not today... today I thought i was going to die on the 8th! YEAH BABY.... hello endurance :)

14 days straight

I joined myfitnesspal a long time ago. Its this website where you track the food you eat. it helps you set up your daily caloric goal, and as you eat you track and it tells you how many more calories you need to eat in order to reach your goal. Its a pretty nifty little website and I like it because I also have the app on my phone, so there is no excuse for not logging my food. Anyhoo... i left it when i got pregnant with Kane because well, I just stopped caring and ate what i wanted..... and therefore here i am.

Anyhoo I realized today that I had a little mini goal reached! 14 days straight of logging. I am still getting the hang of things back on that website, but it is a great place to go for support and motivation (I stalk the success stories threads like a creepy old guy)

Oh ya, and a not so mini goal... I am officially at the lowest weight i have been since having Yale.... that is 3 years people. I have reached this weight only once before and it was shortly before getting pregnant with Kane when i was trying to eat Paleo. Turns out paleo doesn't work for me.. its much too restrictive and i couldn't hack it and gained back like 11 lbs before i got knocked up :)

I also did my first day of the 30 day shred today with jillian micheals. OMG. I did it in the bedroom because I was just prepared to not look good at all, and really, Tyler did not need to see me like that! I sure was right. I can say I do not remember ever EVER in my life sweating to the point that the sweat is flinging off of my face. Ya, pretty picture right there.... but damn... that crazy chick sure knows what she is doing... and that was just level one... I only have 9 more days of level one and than bam... another ass kicking... and thus follows until I am done the final 10 days at level 3.... Its going to hurt and suck, and I may just cry....but I can tell... its going to be worth it :)

on a side note.... i did not manage to do my c25k run today :( BOOOO HISSS! I know I know. My excuse is the weather... it was freaking snowing outside. And yes I already know what you are thinking, because i have thought it about 10 times today. weather is not an excuse. and really its not. but its going to be that way today. my knee is sore, it needs some sort of rest (I promise i will run tomorrow... no matter what excuses i can muster up) but my biggest issue was that i am running in my old nike shox. old shoes that the soles are worn through and i didn't want to slip. Now when my fancy new kicks show up that my lovely sister Erica bought for me for my birthday...there will be no excuses! None...nothing will be acceptable... NOPE! and I have to remember that  I really REALLY want to run with Erica this fall, and not have to watch her running ahead of me, but to be able to run WITH her.... I already have the image in my mind of how awesome it will be with us running and my mom waiting at the finish line with my two boys cheering me on.... I WILL RUN DAMNIT....

so get off my case  ok :)

Welcome back!

Okay...I am back. We welcomed a beautiful bouncy boy into our lives on February 9th 2011. He is the most amazing and HEALTHY little boy! Now that he is here, and we are both deemed to be healthy, I am back on that darned weightloss journey. I wasn't really in control of my weight gain with Kane. at the highest I was 234lbs. I am breastfeeding so the initial weight came off quickly, but now i am sort of stuck at 186. I have joined myfitnesspal again to track my calories, and i have set the goal to run a 5k this fall with my sister (or alone if she happens to get knocked up and can't race) I have started the couch to 5 k program and am just beginning week 2, but so far am loving it :) I love the feeling knowing i am pushing my body. I love the endorphins, and how i feel. But most of all, I love that I am just doing it. Me. I AM DOING IT. I am a self professed procrastinator, and am lazy lazy lazy, so for me to have the self motivation to get up and get out there. Its pretty shocking to say the least.
I have had some non scale victories already since having Kane. I fit into american eagle jeans again. I bought these jeans last summer when i was at my lowest....and i pulled them out and put them on no problem. I have a bit of a roll over the top...but no worse than when i first bought them :) I also put on a pair of jeans that have been put away since i got pregnant with yale....and they fit too!!! And today i put on a denim tube top i have had since before Tyler and I got together....and well... i could zip it up, and it was snug....but it did up.... another 10 lbs and that shirt is gunna look damned sexy on me!
I am pretty amped up about this journey. I hope can stay motvated, and honest with myself. and mostly. I hope i reach my goals and am one hot sexy chick this time next year :)

worked out :)

So I realized as I was texting Tyler (the boyfriend) that I had done my pushups/situps/squats (pss) challenge yesterday (my thighs are burning from the squats) and that I has planned to do bodyrock workouts on the days inbetween. So I did my first one today and well... I am sweaty to say the least!

i did 3 circuits of 6 different exercises. I was ready to quit after the first exercise.... and I cam really close to stopping after the first and second round. but i toughed through even if I quit 2 seconds before the interval was over. i found a nifty timing website to count my intervals for me. 30 seconds each exercise to 30 seconds rest. this is the website i used. And this is Zuzana's workout. Bitch is crazy is all I can say!

Started counting calories on an application I downloaded onto my phone. Tomorrow I'll be doing week1day3 on c25k on my way home from work :)